Chemo round 7 - Ring the Bell!

Well, yesterday I had my last round of chemo, I hope.  I had mixed feelings the entire day.  A lot was different from my first round of chemo.  I wasn't nervous about going.  I just left the house like any other day.  Kids went to school.  Josh went to work.  I went to chemo.  

Chemo Round 6

Well, I am almost done with this part.  I am not gonna lie, I am looking forward to not feeling like total and complete shit all the time.  It hasn't been all bad, but I have had some bad days.  The bigger problem is when I have days where I feel almost normal and I think, "Wow, I am getting back to my old self."  I even had a few days where I could workout, granted I was slow and tired and could barely finish a 30 minute video, but it's a start.  Right?  And then I have days where I feel like shit and it just pisses me off.  And I mean pisses me off at the world.  I am not telling you this so you will feel sorry for me.  Feel sorry for my family, they are the ones who have to deal with me.

Over and over again I have said, "I only know what it's like to be the person with cancer, not someone on the other side.  The caregiver."  That has really got to suck.

So, this chemo sucks.  I feel nausea all the time and I am so freaking tired.  The good news is I think it's working.  I can't feel the lump in my breast anymore, so something must be going right.  Just to remind you, I have one more round, then scans, then possibly surgery, then radiation, then a year of what is called targeted or systemic therapy.  It won't be as harsh as the current chemo, so that was a relief.

Thank you all for your emails, notes, texts, cards, and phone calls.  It is really nice to hear from everyone.  I have a few more posts I want to do, but I will save those for later this week.